Today I’m entering 8th month of pregnancy. As you can imagine a whole new world of emotions, thoughts and experiences has been opening up to me lately. So far this pregnancy has predominantly been a profound lesson in letting go and deepening my trust in life. To trust the fact that the universe is growing this precious being inside of me and there is not much I can do other than eat, sleep, take care of my health and most importantly, to have faith and send him love and prayers.
I'm also noticing that I have become softer, slower, more vulnerable and more connected to the Earth. All of these experiences can surely also be made without a baby growing in your belly. Yet we all have different life’s journey’s and on mine, this is what is happening right now. It is all Grace. For the first time I actually understand the concept of Grace on a cellular level.
Looking at the state of world affairs I do fear the kind of world I am bringing this soul into. I wonder if we can turn the ship around, if we can change the way we treat each other and the Planet so that our children will actually have a habitat to live in the future.
As difficult as it seems at times, I choose to believe that we can. You can't fail until you quit. And being pregnant has made me recommit even more deeply to the values that I cherish: non-violence, equality for all, a sustainable lifestyle in the face of global climate change, and above cultivating compassion, forgiveness, and love towards all beings, including myself.
Sounds perhaps too great of a task, but no act of kindness, no matter how small, is ever wasted. Or in the words of Mother Theresa: "Be faithful in small things because it is in them that your strength lies. There are no great things, only small things done with great love.”